Posts from Heaven or Hell?

This is a serious question, and I need some food for thought, so your answers should provide it.

...when I finally got around to listening to this Japanese artist's albums, I was incredibly surprised in a very pleasant way, and I thought that nothing like that could happen again.

Based on certain topics on the forum, or rather, my posts, you can tell that I am an extremely depressed and unhappy person (for many reasons that I don't need to discuss). And although this is indirectly related to this topic, it's not quite what I'm talking about... In general, I spoke about my admiration for this musician completely sincerely, and I can say without exaggeration that his music is the best thing that has happened to me in the last five years. And before that, I was a carefree and moderately happy sixteen-year-old, so that period doesn't count. For me, this is one of the few proofs that there can be wonderful things in life (my life). This music can give me a huge boost of positive energy or, conversely, touch my angry, black, and callous heart.
And, in general, I started thinking... What if I could play? Of course, we don't even need to think about professional skills, but at least some decent level, so that I could enjoy playing this instrument? Would it bring me at least a little bit of happiness? Would it add some bright colors to my gray soul?
I really want to find out, but many things scare me. First, it will, of course, require money, which means I won't be able to just "mess around" with it. At the same time, I'm afraid of how a possible failure might affect me. And there are many reasons to fear such an outcome:
I'm almost twenty-two years old, I've never played a musical instrument, I have a number of mental and physical disorders, and I've never had any talent for anything.

Why not, Reven? Hobbies like that are a great way to unwind, keep yourself busy, and distract yourself from gloomy thoughts. For me, it's drawing; sometimes I feel like painting when I'm in a really bad mood. And in my opinion, creating content is just as enjoyable as consuming it. I think it's worth a try. You can choose a simple, inexpensive tool and start self-teaching if the financial aspect worries you. I don't think you even need a special talent; just learn diligently and persistently, and eventually, quantity will turn into quality. The only thing is, you shouldn't give up when you get bored; you need to keep going...

I can honestly say that his music is the best thing that has happened to me in the last five years.

Well, you're quite impressionable. If the music really has such an effect on you, you should definitely try to learn how to play.

I've never played musical instruments,

I've never found any talent in anything.

Well, you haven't tried playing, so you haven't found any talent. Maybe that's what it is.
Personally, music gives me a lot of pleasure, and playing something simple myself is even more enjoyable than listening to something good.
If we talk about the practical side of the issue, one of the best choices would be an acoustic/classical six-string guitar. A decent one costs about six thousand. It doesn't require any special talent or physical abilities. In a month, you'll master scales and note durations, and you'll already be able to play solo parts. You can easily find melodies online, and not just simple songs like Am-Dm-Boy-6, but also very good arrangements. In general, I recommend it. And Koshka is right, the main thing is desire and willpower, the rest comes with practice. However, I don't remember any cases where I had to force myself to learn to play.

Revan clearly wants a keyboard, so a guitar is out of place here. or a violin
In my opinion, it's easier to learn to play this instrument than others. At least, that's how it was for me. As for learning, you can even do it at home. I have a friend who didn't go to music school, but he plays guitar solos quite well. When it comes to the instrument itself, it's more complicated than it seems at first glance. I only recently learned about the differences between synthesizers, and it's not just about the set of functions or the sound, but also about the keys. Some of them are similar to those on a real piano, i.e., they are heavy and you need to press them harder. There are also light/plastic ones, which are usually cheaper. Personally, I played the piano, and I would be more comfortable with heavy or semi-heavy keys, but such a synthesizer costs 20k+ rubles, so... You can really try something simpler, especially since you might not like it. And finally, about finding an outlet during the game. Personally, I think that music can bring peace, create a certain balance within a person, and help them understand themselves.
PS You'll have to work hard

Revan, playing the piano isn't very difficult. I played a little myself. Then I stopped. Then I tried to remember something, I remembered something, but then I stopped again. But that's not the point. The main thing is that it's not a problem, and there's nothing to be afraid of; you just need a little perseverance (and it would be good to have some instrument at home, at least a synthesizer). And that's it... You just sit and play in the evenings.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQ_R8QBeYvs
Look how Hugh Laurie plays, and you don't really need to be a recognized master. Although I don't know where he got his skill, but still...

Yes, I used to play the piano, but I didn't have the patience to stick with it for long. I learned more or less on my own, from fifth to tenth grade, and eventually played some melody at a school morning event, and then I gave it up.

I didn't even play at school events. But the fact is that it's not particularly difficult. I don't even agree with the statements that you need to "work hard." From my point of view, no. It takes a long time, definitely. Regularly, yes, if you play once a month, there won't be much point. But "hard"... Maybe at the beginning, when you're learning the basics. And then you just need to practice, starting with easier pieces and moving on to more complex ones. Of course, my experience is quite limited, but I don't think I'm wrong about this.

I am extremely depressed and unhappy.

I sympathize. But how can a Death Knight help an extremely depressed and unhappy person?

No, you need to be persistent. I didn't persevere when I was learning to draw, and now I have what I have, but I could have become a great designer.

Cookie designer

I would gladly eat such a gingerbread cookie.

In the form of Cauchy?

Designed by her.

No, you need to be persistent. I didn't persist when I was learning to draw, and as a result, I have what I have, but I could have already been a great designer.

He doesn't need to compose music, just play it. For this, it's enough to:
1. Know how.
2. Have (or develop) a sense of rhythm.
3. Learn to read sheet music (when I tried to return to playing the piano, the lack of this skill was the most noticeable; I couldn't, and still can't, play anything and understand it right away; everything had to be studied for a long time and I had to blindly poke at the keys).
In my humble opinion, all of this requires practice. Although there should be a lot of practice, I won't argue with that.

Would it bring me even a tiny bit of happiness? Would it add some bright colors to my gray soul?

You won't know unless you try.

About 70% of the things I start don't work out in the end. I once started learning to play the guitar – I didn't even get to the morning performance – I gave up before that. Maybe that's not right, but I don't see any reason to be sad – I still have many ideas about what to do. Some of them (sometimes unexpectedly) become hobbies. True, my hobbies rather calm me down and distract me, and only then bring joy.

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Regularly -- yes again

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I constantly run into problems because of this – I don't have enough patience for routine.