But I think this will be my last. The effort I put in, especially on the last day, doesn't seem to pay off much, and you'll be remembered as someone who, in any unclear situation, just writes "gg, wp".) There's nothing you can do about it.
You were completely immersed in the game; after that, I would definitely want to take a good break. It's a shame if this really is your last game; maybe someday you'll be able to just chill and play casually.