Why don’t you participate in the portal’s tournaments? Auto-translated

Of course, I might be misunderstood, but I only played online once, and that was in Warhammer 40K. And even then, it was with someone who was playing the game for the first time. So, I don't see the point in playing online for myself because:
1. It takes up a lot of time.
2. I'm not a super player.
3. I don't like losing, so I don't play. ;)
But I think I should try it, as others have said, with people like me.

Once upon a time, I really loved one game. I played it alone, against the computer, as I knew how and as I liked. Without caring or knowing how others play it.
One day, I wanted to try what playing against real opponents is like. I found a server, played a few games, and left, not wanting to spend any more time on IT.
Since then, I haven't participated in any tournaments, gaming meetups, etc.
Not because I'm a noob (although that's also true, but not the main reason), but simply because the overly schematic process isn't interesting to me – starting with a specific hero, building something specific on the 2nd day, and definitely conquering a nearby Castle on the 3rd week... In short, this memorization, without which you can't play on equal footing with others, kills the desire. The interest in such a game disappears; you no longer perceive it as an aesthetic pleasure, but as a meat grinder with a polished tactic...
And I like to play as I like – stupidly, for a long time, accumulating troops, forgetting to build mages... And if the game doesn't bring pleasure, then why play it?

I have never participated in any online Tournaments. I want to try it out...