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it’s not for me, it’s for everyone.

I don’t need it.

Actually, I need it, but it would be great if Arandor asked once...
Besides, sometimes this button is available in the quick reply. I have no idea why it appears and disappears.

You only need Adobe Photoshop and Clip Studio Paint ❤️❤️❤️

A person should not be skinny, but rather fit.

In other words, fat, but without scoliosis? I really don't like when this word is used in that context.

Without scoliosis, one can have a good posture – upright or stately, perhaps. Thin – this implies anorexia. Although it's the antonym of being overweight, it's still not a good thing.

And what if you have scoliosis, but you're not skinny, overweight, or hunched over?

A bad peace is better than a good war.

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What if you have scoliosis, but you're not thin, overweight, or hunched over?

"Crooked."

A lean peace is better than a fat quarrel.

A stately peace is better than a hunched quarrel.

I'll write it here.
For a very long time, I've been carrying a tail of completely shattered psyche, self-hatred, vulnerability, zero self-esteem, egocentricity, and other problems. Many factors are mixed into this process — let's not kid ourselves, among them was HeroesWorld with its mafia games, the politics thread, the peculiar manner of communication of some people (I don't hold it against them and I'm not angry at them for it, but it was slowly eating away at my nerves regardless of my attitude), some fairly strong disagreements, and other nonsense. As I mentioned, the last straw was outright harassment and insults about a year ago from one of the participants whom I sincerely considered a friend; I only recently digested that situation, realized it, and drew conclusions, but I still haven't let it go, and the consequences are making themselves known and may continue to do so for a very long time. Right now, there are a couple of factors that have a beneficial effect on my mental state; if I'm lucky, there may be more of them in the future, and I'll manage to crawl out of this. As I once wrote here, not much connects me to HeroesWorld now — our interests and priorities are too different; however, I also can't completely abandon the forum where I've spent more than ten years and whose inhabitants I've almost become one with. It hurts me to come here, but tearing this place out of my life hurts even more. Nevertheless, my problems, including excessive vulnerability, haven't gone away, and what for many people is just an ordinary joke, a neutral remark, or a friendly tease can wound me very deeply, right to the heart — I'm aware of this much more acutely now than ever before, and I'm not afraid to admit it, even though the situation has improved compared to what it was several years ago. On top of that, my spiritual connection with the HeroesWorld community has weakened, and I can no longer always perceive something as a friendly comment.
I'm writing this simply for information — so you understand why I behave the way I do, why I'm still here even though I'm clearly uncomfortable. I don't know what will become of me next, how I will behave, or what I will do. I apologize if my cockroaches cause anyone discomfort, but I can't promise anything — the psyche is a complicated thing; I don't have a button in my head that says "don't be sad or angry, what's wrong with you, life is good." Just know that despite my hang-ups, you are an integral part of my life, and whether that's good or bad — I haven't fully figured out myself.

*image of boars*

When I visited Ples.

I'll write here.
A long, long tail of utterly shattered psyche, self-hatred, vulnerability, zero self-esteem, egocentrism, and other problems has been trailing behind me. Many factors are mixed up in the process — why beat around the bush, among them was HeroesWorld with its mafia games, the politics thread, the peculiar manner of communication of some people (I don't hold it against them and I'm not angry at them for it, but it slowly frayed my nerves regardless of my attitude), some rather strong disagreements, and other nonsense.

On one hand, I sincerely want to offer support. But on the other hand, I understand that words usually don't help at all. Unfortunately, assholes have always existed and always will.
They usually have a knack for determining someone's degree of vulnerability and sniffing out weakness. And they exploit it with great pleasure. A vulnerable and insecure person is an excellent target for dumping filth. If someone treats you like scum, it doesn't mean you're a bad or wrong person. It says nothing about you at all.

Thank you. Kind words are never superfluous, and it's especially important to me when certain points are repeatedly voiced aloud. After the 3.14-piece of hell that happened a year ago, I heard "Everything's fine, except for that person, you're mostly welcome here and certainly not regarded like those two notoriously infamous types" enough times and from enough people to remember just how much I love HeroesWorld.

I've been working remotely from my country house this week, and since last night, something has been going on nearby, with a lot of shooting (it's unclear whether it's rockets or cannons, but what's most concerning is that it started at night).
The only relevant news I've found is https://function.mil.ru/news_page/country/more.htm?id=12321737@egNews, but we're quite far from that area, so I don't think it's related. And the shooting sounds like bursts of fire, while you'd expect tank exercises to involve targeting one tank at a time (although if the tank has a rocket launcher, they could be firing bursts from it).
So, you end up wondering what's going on and whether something has happened.