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Why feel sorry for you? You're a record-breaker! You're successful and lucky!

Don't inflate my ego beyond my capabilities!

record-breaking? Wow, I lived to see seventeen? lol)
yes, pity me even more

No, in the sense that dreaming about childhood or what happened a few years ago during these years is already the end of the line.
I don't pity you, you're weak.

I'm not weak, I'm schizophrenic. Which, by the way, is quite convenient, because it gives you +20 to self-esteem, since you can blame everything on the illness, the cause of which is not in me, but in GENES, in the ENVIRONMENT (read: difficult childhood, a broken stroller, a white crow in a black first grade). On the other hand, it's somehow depressing, sticky, and very similar to autotraining, but the excuse is so good, and the best thing about it is that it's not an excuse at all, but a perfectly real reason, even if it looks like an excuse.

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dreaming about childhood or what happened a few years ago in these years is already the final stop.

lol, what is this even about. For me, it's always better in the past than in the future. I'm getting worse and worse, I have less and less taste for life. If it's not the same for you, then that's your situation, but this is the life I have, I don't have a choice.

He doesn't dream of childhood; he dreams of lolis, but they can't be together because Imaris has already grown up, while lolis haven't.

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No, you're weak, and you see yourself as a loser. Being unable to string two words together with classmates isn't a difficult childhood; a difficult childhood is one spent in poverty with alcoholic parents.

I didn't have a difficult childhood; I just wrote that as an example and figuratively. By the way, a weakling and a loser are very different things; they differ precisely in that a weakling is to blame for their own situation, while a loser is simply unlucky and not to blame. That's the gist of it. :)

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Schizophrenia can be considered a misfortune, but frankly, I don't care whether it's true or just self-hypnosis. But it makes me feel better, so let it be as it is. :)

It’s rare for someone to be completely blameless.

But sometimes it happens.

a loser is simply unlucky and not to blame

Excuses of losers. This is a way of thinking, not an indicator of luck.

And did you know, Lokken, that autotraining is very beneficial? You can make yourself believe in anything, even that you are happy, and after that, you won't need to do anything, because you won't care about anything anymore; you'll just feel good because you've convinced yourself of it. That's how it works!

Can't you just avoid being a boring, annoying jerk?

Excuses of losers. It's a way of thinking, not an indicator of luck.

Where did the word loser come from? It comes from the word misfortune. And what is misfortune? Bad luck, the negative influence of some random factor on certain events. Therefore, a loser is a person who is constantly unlucky, for whom some events beyond their control constantly interfere with their normal life or doing something. However, in colloquial speech, the meaning of this word has merged with the meaning of "sucker" or "weakling." Including myself, when I talk about myself as a loser, I mean exactly that, not "external factors," although, as it turns out, they do exist in my case.

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Or you can just not be a boring, depressing jerk, lol.

Yes, this is, by the way, much easier than simply convincing yourself that you are happy (such self-training should really be difficult, it's not clowning). Unfortunately, I can't even do that

It seems that Chot Klov is a real schizophrenic. And schizophrenics are all losers.