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And here come the stoics.

Then alchemists.

Dude, are you doing this on purpose? My brain is just starting to recover after a year and a half of non-stop, 24/7 obsession with Heroes of Might and Magic, I don't need a relapse.

It wasn't me, I swear, it was Marcus Aurelius...

Beautiful words. Reading them awakens something inside you. Regarding living in the present moment and regarding pain from the past, I recommend reading Eckhart Tolle — he explains very well how to transmute pain from the past and how to live in the present moment.

I completely agree with everything said; Eckhart Tolle is definitely worth reading in terms of getting rid of pain!!

Why am I constantly tempted to rename this thread "Life is Pain".

Yes, that's how it is; until you awaken — pain is inevitable and serves as a very powerful awakening factor. The more pain there is in a person's life, the closer they are to awakening.

The foundation of happiness is unity with oneself always. You must remember the main thing — acceptance of psychological pain opens the gates to moving beyond it. You must accept everything that causes you pain; you must engage in a dialogue with it. It is you. There is no other way to get rid of pain; the only way is to accept it... A person suffers, a person agonizes — everyone seeks a state of happiness, a state of unity with life. A person feels lonely, rootless. Hence the desire to once again take root in existence, to become greening again, to become blessed again. We need to understand something. Absolute unity with consciousness or life is unity with oneself. For this, we must reject nothing. This is the first thing that needs to be understood. Wholeness is the first step on the path to bliss. This is what all sages insist upon again and again: wholeness is bliss. One must accept everything. Nothing should be rejected. If you reject something, you create problems, and the problems become increasingly complex.

• The First Step — acceptance: The greatest desire in the world is the desire for inner transformation. Money, power, authority — they are nothing; the greatest desire is the so-called thirst for the spiritual. If you are gripped by this desire, you will never succeed. Transformation is possible. But not through desire. Transformation is possible through relaxation into the situation as it is. Transformation is caused by unconditional self-acceptance. We need to take this seriously, for this is the heart of the universal situation. A person suffers, a person agonizes — everyone seeks a state of happiness, a state of unity with life. A person feels lonely, rootless. Hence the desire to once again take root in existence, to become greening again, to become blessed again. We need to understand something. Absolute unity with consciousness or life is unity with oneself. For this, we must reject nothing. This is the first thing that needs to be understood. For example, right now you are experiencing real fear. If you reject it, you suppress it; you wound your essence. You are afraid to look the truth in the eye. But this is a fact, this is reality. If you stop looking your fear in the eye, it will not disappear. You are behaving like an ostrich. Upon seeing an enemy or mortal danger, an ostrich hides its head in the sand. But the enemy does not disappear because of this. The ostrich only becomes more vulnerable before the enemy. Thinking that there is no enemy — since he sees no one — the ostrich rids itself of fear. In fact, it exposes itself to even greater danger; an unnoticed enemy is more dangerous. If the ostrich did not hide its head in the sand, something could be done. People do the same thing. If you are afraid of something, you try not to notice it — but this is a fact, you are not accepting a part of your essence. You have divided yourself into parts. Then one day you will not want to accept anger, then you will not want to accept greed. And so on. Negative emotions do not disappear because you do not wish to perceive them. You have destroyed your own wholeness. The more you destroy yourself, the more unhappy you are.

• Wholeness is the first step on the path to bliss. This is what all mystics insist upon again and again: wholeness is bliss. One must accept everything. Nothing should be rejected. If you reject something, you create problems, and the problems become increasingly complex. It is simple — if you are afraid, what do you do? You admit: "Yes, I am afraid." That's all! If you admit your cowardice — that is already courage! Only a brave person can confess their fear — you are already on the path to transformation. So, first — reject nothing that can be experienced through experience. To achieve this, consciousness must stop identifying itself with obsessive, static ideas. This is second. If your mind clings to ideas about who you are, it does not accept the reality that contradicts these ideas. If you have ideas about how you should be, you cannot accept yourself as you are. If you have an idea that you should be brave, it is difficult for you to accept your faint-heartedness. If you have an idea of being a very compassionate person — like the Buddha — you cannot accept your anger. This is an ideal that creates problems. No ideal — no problems. If you are a coward, be a coward! Since you have no ideal of being brave, you do not judge yourself — you do not reject or suppress your fear. If you drive fear into the subconscious, it will continue to create problems for you. It is like a disease driven inside. If it manifests — there is a possibility that it will disappear. If a disease manifests — that is good. This is the path to healing — then it gains contact with the sun and fresh air and can be cured. If you do not allow it to come to the surface, if you drive it inward, it turns into cancer. Even a minor illness can become dangerous if you suppress it.

One must never suppress an illness. However, suppression is natural if you have an ideal. For example, if you have an ideal of maintaining celibacy, sex becomes a problem. This is easy to notice. If you have no ideal of maintaining celibacy, you do not renounce sex. There is no separation between you and your sexuality. Unity is established between them. This unity, this union, brings you joy. The foundation of happiness is unity with oneself always. So, the second thing that must be remembered — abandon ideals. Just think — if you have an ideal, you should have three eyes. Because you have two instead of three eyes (as it should be — as your ideal suggests), a problem arises. You want to have a third eye. You have created an unsolvable problem! The most you can do is draw a third eye on your forehead. But a drawn third eye is just a drawn third eye; it is a fake. Ideals make people fake. An absurdity results: although the ideal of people is not to be fake, it is precisely ideals that bring fakeness. If all ideals disappear — fakeness will disappear.

Why does fakeness exist? It is a consequence of the presence of ideals. The higher the ideal — the more the fakeness. There are more hypocrites in India than anywhere else in the world. Why? Because for many centuries, India lived by great ideals. Mad, strange ideals... For example, a Jain monk is dissatisfied if he cannot eat very rarely, like the mythological Mahavira. It is said that out of twelve years, Mahavira ate only one year. That is, he ate once every twelve days. If this is your ideal, you condemn yourself to great unhappiness. If this is not your ideal — no problems.

• The cause of the problem is the ideal. Understand this. A Christian monk is not bothered by this problem. A Jain monk suffers constantly — he cannot reach the ideal; he fails. If you are truly, genuinely pure, you do not sweat. This is a Jain idea. Now you have this foolish idea! Your body will continue to sweat, you will continue to suffer. The more ideals you have, the more hypocritical you are — if you cannot achieve the ideal, you must pretend. This is where fakeness comes from. If we accepted reality as it is, there would be no hypocrisy in the world. If we live by what is, and not by what we "should" or "must," where could hypocrisy come from? Once someone asked me: "Are you not a hypocrite? You live in comfort, you have a beautiful house, a wonderful car. You live like a king." He does not understand what the word "hypocrisy" means. Everything I teach is to live as well as possible. I am not a hypocrite. I live according to what I teach. It would be hypocrisy if I taught living in poverty while living in a palace. But I do not teach living in poverty; that is not my goal. I live naturally: living in convenience and comfort is very natural. Not living in comfort, if it is possible, is stupid. That's another matter if it is impossible. Live comfortably in the conditions available to you..........
Osho

Description:

This game is based on some dreams that always appeared during the fight against depression. Impressions from some dreams are fragmented in memory, and finally, they are combined to form this unique world – the dream of the wizard Black Crow. Every person has 1 Witch living in their heart; this is a fantastic and sad journey. When the spirit is on the verge of collapse, it is difficult to separate dreams from reality. Perhaps dreams will be better and more real than reality. Perhaps dreams will become a hellish scene, locking away and protecting people's hearts.

A complex adventure world of dreams about death and rebirth
In Black Crow's dream, explore the dark and threatening spiritual world through obstacles, find the nightmares in Black Crow's dream, and destroy them. Eventually, confront Black Crow's heart. Death in a dream is not scary; the cycle of despair is scary.

Action elements and skill combinations
A flexible action mechanism allows the main character to fight freely, whether it's dodging or counterattacking, which can be convenient. A rich combination of skills gives the main character more opportunities to expand and fight. Explore dreams to gain more skills, learn more skill combinations, and combine action mechanisms to find more effective ways to fight.

10 challenging boss battles
Without a doubt, this will be the culmination of action role-playing games. 10 carefully designed bosses have different origins and unique combat styles. Use your abilities to find the most effective way to destroy the bosses. Eventually, confront Black Crow's heart and save it from the dark heart.

.................I have had various situations in my life. But I always felt comfortable. When I was a student, I had to walk four miles to get to the university. And I liked it! Every day I walked those eight miles with great pleasure. After starting work as a teacher, I began cycling to the university. And I liked that too. It didn't matter what the situation was — whether I had a bicycle or a Mercedes-Benz. I felt comfortable. Comfort is a mental attitude, an attitude toward life. There were times when I lived very poorly. When I became a lecturer at the university, I lived in a room without windows or ventilation. I paid twelve rupees a month for it. And I experienced no problems. I even liked it. I extracted everything that was possible from the present moment. I drank it to the bottom. I desired nothing more and lamented nothing. I rejoiced in whatever happened. You cannot say that I am a hypocrite. I have no ideals, I have no categories of "ought" or "should." There is only what is. That is how I live. So, second — the abandonment of notions about oneself. People always have too many notions about who they should be. To be a coward if you want to be brave is terrible. But cowardice is reality. And an ideal is just an ideal, a fantasy. Abandon ideals and fantasies in favor of reality to find unity with yourself. Everything you rejected will return; everything you suppressed will come to the surface. You will feel like a whole.

For example, if I consider myself a "kind" person, I cannot accept or realize anger. "Kind" people do not get angry. To bring unity into my consciousness, I must understand that I am only a practical, momentary reality. Sometimes I am angry, sometimes I am sad. Sometimes I rejoice, sometimes I am jealous. Accept everything that happens. Then you can achieve wholeness. This is the most important thing. My task and goal are to rid you of all ideals. You came to me with ideals; you want me to support them. Perhaps that is why you came here. But that is not my job. My task is exactly the opposite: to help you accept what is and forget all your fantasies. I want you to become more practical and realistic. For you to put roots into the earth — in your thirst, your striving for the sky, you have completely forgotten about the earth. The sky is open only to those whose roots are deep in the earth. A tree, if it wants to grow high into the sky, whisper with the clouds and stars, and play with the winds, must put its roots deep into the earth. So, first — put roots in the earth. The stronger and deeper the roots, the higher the tree. All I am trying to do is help you put roots deep into the soil of truth. Truth is your essence. When this happens, changes will unexpectedly begin to occur; you will start to grow. The ideals that you always strove for and could never achieve will begin to be realized in life. If a person accepts reality as it is, tension disappears. Suffering, anxiety, despair dissolve. When there is no anxiety, tension, schizophrenia, division — joy unexpectedly arises.

Love unexpectedly arises. Compassion arises. This is very natural. The only thing necessary is to get rid of blocks, or ideals. The more idealistic a person is, the more blocks they have. Yes, fear, cowardice, anger bring you pain — these are negative emotions. Only by not rejecting but accepting negative emotions can harmony be achieved. By rejecting negative, painful emotions, you become weaker. You will be in a state of constant internal war, a civil war in which one hand fights the other and in which you simply waste your strength.

You must remember the main point — acceptance of psychological pain opens the gates to moving beyond it. You must accept everything that causes you pain; you must engage in a dialogue with it. It is you. There is no other way to get rid of pain; the only way is to accept it. In this way, you will unlock enormous potential. Anger and cowardice, as well as fear, are energy. Everything that happens to you possesses a huge amount of hidden energy. If you accept it, it becomes yours. You become stronger, you begin to become freer. Your inner world expands. Psychological pain ends as soon as you accept it in all its fullness. Psychological pain exists not because of the presence of what you call "painful." Pain is generated by your interpretation of reality. Try to understand this. Psychological pain is your own creation. It is not cowardice that causes pain, but the idea that cowardice is wrong. Cowardice condemns your ego. From this condemnation and interpretation, pain arises. Cowardice turns into pain. You cannot accept it, you cannot destroy or reject it. Nothing is destroyed simply because you reject it; sooner or later, you will have to face it. It will disrupt your peace again and again. You do not accept the facts of cowardice, anger, fear, sadness. In doing so, you cause yourself pain. Observe yourself. Become a huge experimental laboratory. Just imagine: you are alone, it is dark, there is no one around, you are afraid. You are lost in the jungle; you are sitting in a tree at night. Lions are roaring. You have two options. First — pull yourself together. This is the option where fear causes pain. Even if you keep yourself composed. Second advice: enjoy your fear. Let your fear become meditation. It is natural — dark night, lions roaring, deadly danger lurks. Enjoy it. Turn your trembling into a dance. Trembling, if you accept it, is a dance. You will be surprised: if you become the trembling, the pain disappears.

If you allow yourself to tremble, instead of pain you feel a huge surge of energy. This is exactly what your body wants. Why does trembling occur? Trembling triggers a chemical process in the body. It triggers the "fight or flight" reflex and releases energy. This gives a feeling of an enormous surge of energy. This is an extreme measure. You begin to tremble — it means you are beginning to warm up. That is why you shiver in cold weather. Why do you shiver? After all, you aren't afraid. The body automatically shivers from the cold to warm up. It is a natural reaction of the body. Internal tissues shiver from the cold to warm up. When, feeling the cold, you suppress the shivering, it becomes a painful reaction. The same goes for fear. The body tries to prepare. It prepares you to meet danger. It releases chemicals into the blood. "Fight or flight." Energy will be needed in any case. Observe the beauty of fear. Fear is an attempt to prepare you to accept a challenge. Instead of accepting the challenge and understanding the nature of fear, you reject it. You say: "You, such a great person, are trembling? Remember: the soul is immortal, there is no death. You are an immortal soul — and you tremble? Remember: death cannot destroy you, weapons cannot wound you, fire cannot burn you. Remember this and do not be afraid." You create conflict. To suppress fear, you introduce unnatural ideas into the natural process of fear — you introduce ideals into it. And since this causes conflict, it causes pain. Do not worry whether the soul is immortal or not. Right now, the truth is that you are afraid. Live in the present moment. This will rid you of pain. Fear is a subtle dance of energies. It is not your enemy; it is your friend. But your interpretation of what is happening does you a disservice. The Schism you created between your feelings and your "I" — between your "I" and fear, anger — divides you in two. You become simultaneously the observer and the object of observation; you say: "I, the observer, am here; pain, the object of observation, is there." This duality generates pain.

You are neither the object of observation nor the observer. You are the observer and the object of observation simultaneously. Do not say: "I feel fear." That is wrong. Do not say: "I am afraid." That is also wrong. Say simply: "I am fear. In this moment, I am fear." No duality! By saying "I feel fear," you separate yourself from it; you perceive your fear as if from the outside. This is the basis of duality. Say simply: "I am fear." If there is fear, you are fear. If you feel love, you are love. If anger — you are anger. This is what Krishnamurti says again and again: "The observer is simultaneously the object of observation." The same applies to experiences. Do not create a division between subject and object. This is the main cause of all unhappiness. Realizing everything as it is — is the key to unlocking the secret mystery of your essence. Do not say that this is good, do not say that this is bad. If you say about something that it is good, attachment arises. When you say about something that it is bad, rejection arises. Fear is fear; it is neither good nor bad. Do not judge it.
Osho

Everything is beautiful, even the ugly, whether you accept it or not. Rejection or acceptance affects nothing — everything is as it is. If you accept it, it brings you joy; if not, it causes pain. Reality does not change because of this. Psychological pain is your own creation.

Fear is fear; it is neither good nor bad. Do not judge it. Let there be fear! Through this awareness, all psychological pain vanishes like dew drops in the morning sun. A virginally pure space remains. This is oneness, Dao, or God. This is what remains when pain disappears and the observer becomes the object of observation — it is the experience of the state of love, or enlightenment; you may call it whatever you wish. In this state, there is no observer/judge/controller, no "I". There is only experiencing and experience, which change every second. It can be joy, compassion, destruction, fear, sadness, loneliness. You should not say: "I am sad." Rather, say: "I am sadness." The first statement implies that you are separating yourself from this feeling. There is no "I" experiencing this feeling. There is only the feeling itself. Meditate on this: this is feeling as such. There is no "I" that feels fear; "I" am fear. At other moments, it may be something else — you are not separate from the moment in which the emotion arises; there is only the emotion. Nothing can be done with it. There is no one who could "do" anything with it.

Everything is beautiful, even the ugly, whether you accept it or not. Rejection or acceptance affects nothing — everything is as it is. If you accept it, it brings you joy; if not, it causes pain. Reality does not change because of this. Psychological pain is your own creation. By rejecting the truth, you place yourself in a prison. The truth sets you free, but you rejected it, and that is why this happened. You continue to lock yourself in prison by rejecting the truth. The truth does not change because of this. Whether you reject it or accept it does not matter. Only your psychological reality changes. There are always two options — joy or pain, health or sickness. If you reject the truth, it is discomfort and sickness. You cut away a huge piece of your essence; this leaves wounds. If you accept the truth, it is health, joy, and wholeness.
Truth does not deprive anyone of freedom; that is not its quality. But when you reject the truth, you close yourself off. It is a kind of paralysis. But remember: the very idea of liberation is already an ideal. Freedom is not an ideal; it is a consequence of accepting yourself, whoever you may be. It is a consequence; it is not the goal. Its achievement does not require enormous effort. It happens naturally. If you cannot accept your cowardice, how can it happen naturally? You cannot accept love, you cannot accept fear, you cannot accept sadness. Why can't people relax? What is the main reason for their constant chronic tension? This is the main reason — for many centuries, your so-called religions have taught you to reject. They taught you to renounce: you must change this, you must change that. Only then can God accept you. You cannot accept the people you live with, you cannot accept yourself. How then can God accept you?

Life has already accepted you. That is why you are here. Otherwise, you would not be here. This is my main instruction to you. Life has already accepted you. You do not have to do anything to deserve it. You no longer need to. Relax and enjoy what nature has made of you. If nature implanted cowardice in you, perhaps there is something to it. Trust it and simply accept it. What is wrong with cowardice? Or with fear? Only idiots do not feel fear. Seeing a snake on the road, you immediately jump aside. Only a fool or an idiot would not be afraid. If you are smart, you will jump aside as quickly as possible. This is absolutely normal. It helps you protect yourself. But you continue to insist. You do not listen to what I say. Accept everything I say; acceptance is the key to transformation. I am not saying that you must accept yourself in order to transform — it is impossible to accept yourself if deep down you want transformation. You say: "Fine, if it will help the transformation, I accept myself." But this is not acceptance; you are missing the main point. You still want transformation, just as before. Where is the acceptance here, if I guarantee it to you? You are using acceptance as a means. The goal is freedom, transformation, the achievement of self-realization, nirvana. Where is the acceptance here? Acceptance must be causeless, unmotivated, unconditional. Only then will it make you free. It brings great freedom and joy. But freedom is not the goal.

Acceptance is another name for freedom. If you truly, genuinely accept, if you understand what I mean by acceptance — that is freedom. Instant and immediate. You do not receive freedom after you have once accepted yourself, no. Self-acceptance is already freedom. Psychological pain disappears immediately. Try it. This is verified in practice. It is not a question of faith. You have struggled with your fear for a long time — try to accept it, and you will see what happens. Sit quietly, accept it, and say: "I am afraid, therefore I am fear." In this meditative state, freedom will begin to descend upon you. If the acceptance is complete — you attain freedom.
Osho (from the book "On Feelings")

Death does not contradict life; it does not signify the end of life, but rather brings life to a beautiful culmination. Life continues even after death. It existed before birth and will continue after death. Life is not limited to the brief period between birth and death; rather, birth and death are but small episodes in the eternity of life. There is nothing bad about death; it is beautiful – but one must know how to live and how to die. There is an art to living, and there is an art to dying, and the latter art is more valuable than the former. Only those who know how to live properly know how to die properly...
Osho

From the day my grandfather died, death became my... constant companion. On that day, I also died, for I clearly realized: it doesn't matter if you live for seven years or seventy – he was seventy at the time – you will still die someday. (c) Osho

He was a good, wonderful man, and he simply died. What was the meaning of his life? This question continued to torment me: what was the meaning of his life? What did he achieve? For seventy years, he remained a good man, but what was the meaning of all this? Life vanished without a trace, leaving nothing behind. My grandfather's death greatly puzzled me. I began to think about serious questions even before his death. At the age of four, I began to contemplate problems that people usually only begin to consider towards the end of their lives. But I didn't want to waste time. I began to ask questions to my maternal grandfather. He usually answered:
Oh, these questions! You have your whole life ahead of you; you are still very young; don't rush. – Grandfather, I have seen boys in the village die: they never asked such questions; they died without finding an answer. Can you guarantee that I will not die tomorrow or the day after? Can you guarantee that I will only die after I receive answers to my questions?

I cannot guarantee that, because death is not subject to me, just as life is not. – Then don't suggest that I wait until I grow up. I want to know the answer immediately. If you know the answer, please tell me. If you don't know, then just tell me honestly. Soon, he realized that it would be different with me. Saying "yes"... you start having a hard time, because you have to answer follow-up questions, delve into the topic – you can't fool me. My grandfather honestly admitted that he did not know the answers to my questions. I said to him:
You are old and may die soon. What have you been doing all your life? On the threshold of death, you will be left only with your ignorance. I am not asking you simple questions; they are very important to me. You go to the Temple. I ask you: why do you go there? What do you find there? You have been going there all your life and are trying to persuade me to go there with you. He built this Temple. One day, he realized that the whole answer was that "I built this Temple. If even I don't go there, then who will? But I will tell you frankly: yes, it was all in vain. I went there all my life, but I found nothing there." Then I said:

Try something else. Don't die with a question; die with an answer. But he died with a question. The last time we talked – and that was ten hours before his death – he opened his eyes and said: – You were right: don't put anything off until tomorrow. I am dying with many questions. I admit that I gave you bad advice. You were right: you shouldn't put things off until tomorrow. If you have a question, look for the answer as soon as possible...
Osho

Death remains the only exception: everything else in the world has already been spoiled by man. (c) Osho

When someone dies, when someone you knew, loved, lived with, and who became a part of your life dies, something in you also dies. Of course, you will miss them; you will feel a void – that is natural. But that same void can be transformed into a door. For death is a door to God. Death is the only thing that man has not yet spoiled. Man has already spoiled everything, desecrated everything. Only death remains untouched, unspoiled, unsoiled by human hands. Man would gladly take on death too, but it remains unconquered, it does not yield to him. Death is elusive; it remains a mystery. Man is confused. He doesn't know what to do with death. Man does not understand death; it does not lend itself to scientific analysis, which is why it still remains unspoiled. Death remains the only exception: everything else in the world has already been spoiled by man. Make use of these moments. When death unexpectedly penetrates your consciousness, all of life seems meaningless. It really is meaningless. Death reveals the truth. When you unexpectedly encounter death, it seems that the ground is falling out from under your feet. Suddenly, you realize that the death of this person also means your own death. Every death is the death of each of us. (c) Osho

I'm getting inspiration for my quests from this thread.

I'm drawing inspiration for my quests from this thread.

Um, excuse me, inspiration for what?

When a person meditates, they begin to blossom. If a person is an artist, they will become a great artist. If they are a poet, suddenly amazing poems will be born in their soul. If they are a singer, for the first time, a song will begin to flow from their very heart. No, there is no need to make any effort. When you are silent, rooted in your being, centered, your talents begin to manifest automatically. You begin to do what existence wants you to do, you begin to do what you were born to do, you begin to do what destiny has in store for you. You become spontaneous. You begin to engage in your work – and now it doesn't even matter to you whether you will receive anything for it or not, whether it will make you more respected or not. It makes you happy, and that is enough. It brings you immense joy, and that is more than enough.

Meditation releases your energy, and that is all you need. A person who has attained enlightenment has attained the peak – can one desire more? He acts like God. He is existence itself, fully manifested. He has reached the highest flowering – nothing more is needed. Every moment of his life is creation, every gesture is creation, his very life is joy and blessing.
Osho

I sat down to meditate. After just a minute, a distinct, irrepressible desire arose in my soul to hit someone, hard. Now I know what my destiny is. I will start beating people up, and I don't even care if I get a criminal record for it. It will bring me immense joy, and that's more than enough.

I sat down to meditate. Within a minute, a distinct, uncontrollable desire arose in my soul to beat someone up—pardon me—to absolutely fuck them up, and hard. Now I know what destiny has intended for me. I will start beating people, and I don't even care if I get a criminal record for it or not. This will bring me immense joy, and that is more than enough.

That's exactly right); when the mind calms down a bit, everything subconscious and suppressed immediately begins to surface. We usually don't realize that we carry a huge burden of negativity, suppressed emotions, negative experiences, etc., within us. But while in ordinary life we somehow manage to run away from ourselves, during meditation, as soon as we come face-to-face with ourselves, everything true, suppressed, and driven into a dark corner of the subconscious begins to manifest. And today, when general irritability and hatred are simply overflowing, when everyone has accumulated and carries within them literally a raging volcano of anger, despair, negativity, and hatred toward others (essentially toward oneself), it is not surprising at all that such thoughts arose in your head)

That is precisely why Osho recommended starting meditation practices with so-called _dynamic meditation_ or catharsis—a preliminary cleansing of accumulated negativity. Otherwise, entering a state of meditation is impossible, and even attempting to do so is dangerous!..


part 1:

Question to Osho: What is Dynamic Meditation?

Answer:

The first thing that needs to be understood regarding Dynamic Meditation is that it is a method of creating a situation through tension in which meditation can occur. If your entire being is completely tense, the only possibility remaining for you is relaxation. Usually, a person cannot simply relax, but if your entire being is at the peak of total tension, then the second step comes automatically, spontaneously: silence is created.

The first three stages of this technique are arranged in a specific order to achieve maximum tension on all levels of your being. The first level is your physical body. Above it is the prana sharira, the life body—your second body, the etheric body. Above that is the third, the astral body.

Your life body takes breath as food. A change in the usual oxygen norm will inevitably lead to a change in the life body as well. Deep, rapid breathing for ten minutes during the first stage of the technique is intended to change the entire chemistry of your life body.

The breathing must be simultaneously deep and fast—as deep as possible and as fast as possible. If you cannot do both at once, then let your breathing be fast. Fast breathing acts as a kind of hammer striking your life body, and something dormant begins to awaken: the reservoir of your energies is opened. The breath becomes like an electric current flowing through your entire nervous system. Therefore, you must perform the first step as fiercely and intensely as possible. You must participate in it totally. Not a single piece of you should remain on the sidelines. Your whole being must be in the breathing during the first step. You are an anarchist: inhale—exhale. Your entire mind is absorbed by the process—breath goes out, breath comes in. And if you are fully in the process, thoughts will cease because not a drop of your energy reaches them. There is no energy left to keep them alive.

Then, when the electric body begins to work within you, the second step begins. When bioenergy starts to rotate inside you, working through the nervous system, many things become possible for your body. You must let the body go freely, allowing it to do whatever it wants.

The second step will be not only a stage of letting go but also a stage of positive cooperation. You must cooperate with your body because the language of the body is that same language of symbols which has usually been lost. If your body wants to dance, as a rule, you do not feel this message. Therefore, if a slight tendency to dance appears during the second stage, cooperate with it; only then will you be able to understand the language of your body.

Whatever happens during this ten-minute second stage, do everything to the maximum. Throughout the entire technique, nothing should be performed at any level lower than the maximum. Perhaps you will start dancing, jumping, laughing, or crying. Whatever happens to you—for energy will want to express itself—cooperate with it. In the beginning, there will only be a guess, a barely perceptible temptation—so elusive that if you decide to suppress it, it will remain on an unconscious level. You might not even know that you suppressed it. So, if there is even a small hint, a faint glimmer, any indicator in the mind, then cooperate with it and do everything at the maximum, at the very peak.

Tension occurs only at the extreme point, no other way. If the dance does not happen at its maximum, then it will not be effective; it will lead nowhere; people dance so often, but it leads to nothing. Therefore, the dance must occur at its maximum—not planned, but instinctively or intuitively; your reason and intellect must not interfere.

On the second step, simply become the body, be completely one with it, identify with it—exactly as you became the breath during the first stage. At the moment when your activity reaches a maximum, a new fresh sensation will flow into you. Something will be broken: you will see your body as something separate from you; you will become simply a witness of the body. You should not try to become an observer. You just need to identify with the body completely and allow it to do whatever it wants and move wherever it wants.

At the moment when activity reaches its peak—in dance, in crying, in laughter, in illogicality, in all sorts of nonsense—the following happens: you become an observer. From this moment on, you simply watch; identification has vanished, only a witnessing consciousness remains, which comes by itself. You don't need to think about it; it just happens.

This is the second stage of the technique. Only if the first stage is performed totally and completely can you move to the second. It is like a gearbox in a car: first gear can be shifted to second only if first gear has reached its limit, no other way. And the only possibility to shift from second gear to third appears only when the second has reached its maximum. What we are dealing with in Dynamic Meditation are the gears of the mind. If the physical body, the first gear, is brought to the maximum limit through breathing, then you can move to the second gear. And then the second must be performed absolutely intensely: involvedly, devotedly, leaving nothing aside.

If you are practicing Dynamic Meditation for the first time, it will be difficult because we have suppressed the body so strongly that living by a pattern of suppression has become natural to us. But this is not natural! Look at a child: they play with their body quite differently. If a child cries, they cry intensely. A child's crying can be enjoyed, but an adult's crying is ugly. Even in anger, a child is beautiful: they possess total intensity. But when an adult gets angry, it looks ugly: they are not total. And any manifestation of intensity is beautiful. The second stage seems difficult only because we have suppressed so much in the body, but if you cooperate with the body, the forgotten language will return once more. You become a child. And when you become a child again, a new sensation will begin to come to you: you will become weightless—an unsuppressed body becomes weightless.

At the moment when the body becomes unsuppressed, all the suppressions that you have accumulated your whole life are cast aside. This is catharsis. A person who goes through catharsis can never go insane: it is impossible. And if an insane person can be persuaded to go through catharsis, they can return to a normal state. A person who has gone through this process moves beyond insanity: the potential seed is killed, eradicated, thanks to all this catharsis.

The second step is psychotherapeutic. A person can deepen into meditation only through catharsis. They must be completely cleansed: all the nonsense must be thrown out. Our civilization taught us to suppress, to keep everything inside. Because of this, suppressed things enter the unconscious mind and become part of the soul, creating great chaos in the entire being.

Every suppressed ghost becomes a potential seed of insanity. This cannot be allowed. By becoming more civilized, man has potentially come closer to insanity. The less civilized a person is, the fewer opportunities they have to go mad, because they still understand the language of their body and continue to cooperate with it. Their body is not suppressed: their body is the flowering of their essence.....

I sat down to meditate. After just a minute, a clear, irrepressible desire arose in my soul to hit someone, hard. Now I know what my destiny is. I will start beating people up, and it doesn't even matter to me whether I get a criminal record for it or not. This will bring me immense joy, and that is more than enough.

But wouldn't you have felt the same way without meditation?

2. The second stage must be done totally. You should not be outside the body; you should be in it. When you do something, do it completely: be the action itself, not the actor. This is what I mean by totality: be the action, be the process; don't be the actor. The actor is always outside his play, never in it. When I love, I am totally in it, but when I act love, I am outside the play. On the second stage, so many possibilities will open up… and for each individual, something unique will happen. One person will start dancing, another will start crying. One will undress completely, another will start jumping, and a third will start laughing. Everything is possible. Move from within, move totally, and then you will be able to move to the third stage. The third stage is achieved as a result of the first two stages. In the first stage, the electricity of the body – or you can call it Kundalini – is awakened. It begins to rotate and move. Only then does the body experience complete release, not before. Only when the inner movement has begun does the possibility for outer movements arise. When, in the second stage, the catharsis reaches its peak, its limit, then the third, ten-minute stage begins. Start vigorously chanting the Sufi mantra “Hu!” “Hu!” “Hu!” The energy that was awakened through breathing and expressed through catharsis now begins to move inward and upward; the mantra redirects it. Previously, the energy was moving down and out; now it begins to move inward and upward. Continue to strike the sound “Hu!” “Hu!” “Hu!” inward, until your whole being becomes sound. Exhaust yourself completely; only then can the fourth stage – the stage of meditation – happen. The fourth stage is nothing but silence and waiting. If, during the first three stages, you have moved totally, completely, leaving nothing behind, then in the fourth stage, you will automatically fall into deep relaxation. The body is exhausted; all repressions have been thrown out, all thoughts have been thrown out. Now relaxation comes spontaneously – you don't need to do anything to make it happen. This is the beginning of meditation. A situation has been created: you are not here. Now meditation can happen. You are open, waiting, receptive. And whatever happens, happens. Osho