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Barely managed to fix the thread after Ment...

When mom gave a bad haircut.

it happened before..

>The entire autumn was awful; I couldn't get into remission after that green diet. Every time I felt chest pain, I became afraid of cancer, which the doctor had warned me about. >At the end of December, it finally eased up for a week or two, and some kind of emotional peace settled in. I enhanced this feeling with some good content. >I'm planning to celebrate the New Year in a more or less cheerful mood and have made some plans. >But right from the first days of January, it was awful again. I spent the whole month feeling like I was in a bad place, just killing time to get through another day. >If in my "youth" I loved the night and early morning for the feeling of peace and tranquility, in 2020 I started to hate them, and in 2021 I simply became afraid of them. At night, I either can't sleep or I struggle with panic attacks (or whatever it is; basically, when it's super cold, I shiver and feel nauseous). >The other day, I went to the doctor, this time to a different one, and I'm taking a handful of pills again. >For two days in a row, I've felt more or less okay, but I don't feel any joy about it, only fatigue. >It seems like there's a possibility to finally get out of this painful physical state, but I've started to feel that I won't be able to climb out of this moral pit. >I absolutely don't want to do anything at all. Suddenly, I've started to want a nuclear winter or something like that.

Every time I felt chest pain, I started to fear cancer, which the doctor had warned me about.

Welcome to the club; it turns out they always say that when they can't find the cause.
I, by the way, haven't been able to determine the cause of my constant chest pains in three years (or however long it's been), and I've just given up on it.

reason for persistent chest pain

VSD

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