MyDepressionList

All the articles I've read about anxiety don't help, talking it out and writing it down on three sheets of paper doesn't help, cold showers, sports, positive thinking – nothing helps. You just constantly feel bad because of the most mundane thoughts in your head. This is exhausting; you get tired, you fight with yourself every second, you try to force yourself to feel good – and you lose to yourself every second, you start to panic about these – that is, all – feelings. And that's when the most interesting thing happens – your survival instinct decides to protect you from yourself. And when, for the umpteenth time, a wave of sadness starts to wash over you (and you've already studied your condition so well that you recognize the wave in advance, you hear it from afar, by its roar), you become so scared that your survival instinct screams at you logically – "save yourself – jump out the window."