Sacred Haven of Debauchery

And today, they already offered me a job at a WEDDING AGENCY! At a WEDDING agency! As if, instead of my gloomy face and depressing pictures in my resume, there was a cheerful person and flowers with suns.

On the contrary, I thought that gloomy goths/emos should work in a wedding agency, people who, at the very least, don't find happiness in interacting with people.
Has it ever happened that you watch a very funny movie, constantly smile, and by the end of the movie, your facial muscles get tired? And you no longer want to smile or laugh at anything, and you become... emotionless.
And these people are forced to go to work and smile publicly five days a week. Five out of seven days, every week, for many, many years! No matter how optimistic you are, I can't imagine that after five or six weddings, it wouldn't all turn into a disgusting routine for you. While smiling outwardly, inwardly you will be thinking about when it will all end, when all these people will get married and give you a well-deserved day off. And life will become unpleasant because unfamiliar people will demand that you give them all the few positive emotions that you accumulate over time, leaving nothing for yourself.
In this regard, it would be easy for you, Nebo, and this job wouldn't change anything for you. You can't take away what you've already lost. You are the ideal candidate.