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In Quenya (the language of elves according to Tolkien), Estel means Hope, which is also my name in real life, and Laiquacalma literally translates to "green lamp," and A. Green has a story with the same title. First of all, the green lamp that the main character lit symbolizes sadness, grief, boredom, longing, and annoyance, all of which John felt when he sat at home from five to twelve, not going anywhere, not talking to anyone, that is, he was bored and longed for something, and to pass the time, he read books, which is how he became a doctor. At the same time, green represents hope, vigorous growth, and freshness. In many ways, I feel close in spirit to the hero of this story, and besides, green is not exactly an elven color)).