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- Perhaps I was wrong... - she cast a heavy glance at the statue of Arselia (or the place where it used to stand, if it had been removed). - When I found myself here and gradually began to understand what was happening, to my unexpected delight, I noticed that the beliefs here are not so different from my own - as it seemed to me. You revere Anuzish, the world in all its solemn synthesis, or "the planet," as you call it - we don't have such definitions, at least not in common usage. In my culture, Kami are revered - as its individual manifestations. Spiritual entities of mountains, seas, wind, forests... There are many variations, and almost all of them include the primordial natural elements. This worship does not have any deep ideological ultimate goal, but rather has a natural character - if you find yourself next to such a "neighbor," wouldn't you want to show mutual respect, leading to harmonious coexistence? In the end, we fulfill this through decent living, kind words, some modest offering such as food or a coin, and observing rituals. And they, in turn, show us mercy, protecting us from misfortunes or failures, and to the best of their ability, helping us to fulfill some dreams. ...perhaps this may sound naive and too... "folksy" for a person not involved in such details, or who has not witnessed this firsthand, but it does not become less real because of it.
- I still feel their presence in Anuzish, which didn't seem strange to me for a second, because regardless of the dominant themes in people's minds, as long as the world exists, all its natural manifestations exist as well. And besides, after arriving here... I very quickly felt in people a need for something like this. I have observed empires that boldly discarded such matters as unnecessary, only to weave new, man-made "gods" in their minds from money or political ideologies that benefit the ruling elite at the moment and change as quickly as gloves. I find this unacceptable, and I have not yet observed that it has brought people lasting happiness... At first, I thought that this was a heavy spirit of the capital, and perhaps people here simply lack something solid, unchanging. Some kind of positive spiritual agenda. However, when I encountered that servant who almost expelled me... I understand that the situation imposed a certain context on our conversation, and that people are different, and that it is certainly not for me to judge the deep nuances that are hidden from the "abomination." And yet, it seemed to me that he was simply continuing to live in the ancient war of the past, which he did not even witness, and on this alone he is building the entire paradigm of his own existence, mine, and that of all his flock. Perhaps that is why those people accepted me? Not everyone finds joy in a life, from birth to death, dedicated to sharpening a blade for thousands of generations.
Having finished this long monologue, she looked at her hands folded together for a few seconds, trying not to miss the tremor in them, and then finally concluded:
- So... Perhaps I misjudged the situation here... but the diversity of cultures in the capital, the enthusiasm of people close to me, and my own heartfelt impulse prompted me to build my modest shrine outside the city, where people could find a moment of spiritual rest, pray for the health of their loved ones, ask for protection and blessing, and find some ray of hope in the impenetrable darkness of their problems... I have encountered such cases more than once, and unfortunately, so far I have not observed a trend towards their decrease. ...If this requires some kind of license that I am not aware of, how can I obtain it? - she almost snorted at these words of hers, as absurdly mundane they sounded against the background of all the emotions she felt during the conversation. - If this is considered heresy and something contrary to the local order of things... - for a moment, she felt drawn to some kind of fatalistic emotion of accepting this verdict, like bowing her head, which would then be metaphorically beheaded by an Anuzish symbol, but in the last few months of mental torment, she no longer had the strength for such gestures, so she simply sighed wearily. - ...then this was a very foolish and thoughtless act. Perhaps I focused too much on the similarities rather than the differences. I'm sorry. I really didn't mean anything by it.
- I still feel their presence in Anuzish, which didn't seem strange to me for a second, because regardless of the dominant themes in people's minds, as long as the world exists, all its natural manifestations exist as well. And besides, after arriving here... I very quickly felt in people a need for something like this. I have observed empires that boldly discarded such matters as unnecessary, only to weave new, man-made "gods" in their minds from money or political ideologies that benefit the ruling elite at the moment and change as quickly as gloves. I find this unacceptable, and I have not yet observed that it has brought people lasting happiness... At first, I thought that this was a heavy spirit of the capital, and perhaps people here simply lack something solid, unchanging. Some kind of positive spiritual agenda. However, when I encountered that servant who almost expelled me... I understand that the situation imposed a certain context on our conversation, and that people are different, and that it is certainly not for me to judge the deep nuances that are hidden from the "abomination." And yet, it seemed to me that he was simply continuing to live in the ancient war of the past, which he did not even witness, and on this alone he is building the entire paradigm of his own existence, mine, and that of all his flock. Perhaps that is why those people accepted me? Not everyone finds joy in a life, from birth to death, dedicated to sharpening a blade for thousands of generations.
Having finished this long monologue, she looked at her hands folded together for a few seconds, trying not to miss the tremor in them, and then finally concluded:
- So... Perhaps I misjudged the situation here... but the diversity of cultures in the capital, the enthusiasm of people close to me, and my own heartfelt impulse prompted me to build my modest shrine outside the city, where people could find a moment of spiritual rest, pray for the health of their loved ones, ask for protection and blessing, and find some ray of hope in the impenetrable darkness of their problems... I have encountered such cases more than once, and unfortunately, so far I have not observed a trend towards their decrease. ...If this requires some kind of license that I am not aware of, how can I obtain it? - she almost snorted at these words of hers, as absurdly mundane they sounded against the background of all the emotions she felt during the conversation. - If this is considered heresy and something contrary to the local order of things... - for a moment, she felt drawn to some kind of fatalistic emotion of accepting this verdict, like bowing her head, which would then be metaphorically beheaded by an Anuzish symbol, but in the last few months of mental torment, she no longer had the strength for such gestures, so she simply sighed wearily. - ...then this was a very foolish and thoughtless act. Perhaps I focused too much on the similarities rather than the differences. I'm sorry. I really didn't mean anything by it.
My sword, my trusted ally, unphased by my aspect.
