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Futaba lay across the bed, her legs propped up on the wall and her head hanging over the opposite edge, holding a theology textbook in her outstretched hands.
The amount of feverish nonsense concocted by people to justify their ignorance of how the world works, as described in this book, exceeded all reasonable limits. The stories themselves about various spheres of influence of supernatural forces didn't contain any particularly new information, unknown to the average person, but when compiled into a school curriculum as a single unit, they allowed one to look at them comprehensively and assess the scope of theological fantasy as a whole.
Apparently, we used to live in water, waking up to happy, cheerful laughter, all rosy-cheeked, and fish would jump right into the pot. And then, suddenly, it all stopped – Mother was offended about something and threw her children into a hostile environment. It's like when a young, impoverished mother drowns her baby, just like a kitten in a sack, simply because she can't afford to raise it. People look askance at this, of course, but it turns out it's for nothing – the newborn will return to the gods in their realm anyway, so what's there to fear?
Futaba remembered Oppaito's face – her drowned younger brother – bluish and bloated, covered in water striders, nibbled on by crabs and perch; that image, which had haunted her consciousness for so many years, came to her in her dreams every night and tormented her many times each day. It didn't resemble the happy, serene expression of a person returning to an underwater paradise, or one ready for rebirth. Maybe she should have eaten a smelt in honor of her grandfather in the clouds, and then everything would have worked out?
Why do creatures like Alidum, the headmistress, or Karvia Imas live long and fulfilling lives, while her four-year-old brother, who hadn't harmed a fly, meets a painful death? Futaba couldn't find any adequate explanations for such basic things in the book. From the theologians' point of view, it all boils down to vague statements like "well, he probably didn't follow the commandments" and "well, that's what the gods wanted, you wouldn't understand." But are these gods worthy of worship then?
Apparently, this thought also occurred to the creators of the "cult of seven." Deciding to demonstrate civic responsibility, they rejected the idea of the old gods and began to worship ordinary people. In doing so, they glorified people who hadn't done anything in their lives except spill rivers of blood – one idea is more remarkable than the other. And they even extolled degenerative personality traits as virtues, in mockery of the old teachings.
Indifferently flipping through the pages, Futaba stops at the section devoted to Ira. She clicks her tongue and shakes her head at the expression on her face in the official image, then flips the page, but a few seconds later she goes back. The "goddess'" idiotic smile, her theatrical wave of her hand – all of this captivates her and evokes an irresistible desire to take off her slipper and slap her in the face.
"Well, what are you grinning about? Are you having fun? You don't even have the highest rank," Futaba grumbles and gives the picture a tap.
Then she gets out of bed, takes a pencil, and draws a toothbrush mustache, a bruise, and a couple of chipped teeth on her. After all, a "goddess of war" can't be without battle scars. With a sigh, she slams the textbook shut, throws it aside, stretches, and looks at the clock – it's time to go to her shift at the perverted store.
In the process of getting dressed and gathering her things, she glances at Barbarian's desk – she has several bookmarks sticking out of the same textbook, and next to it lies a thick notebook, the contents of which Futaba once glimpsed from behind her neighbor's back. It was a very brief, fleeting moment, and the lighting in the room at that time might have been deceiving, but it seemed as if the notebook had a pentagram drawn in it, with a goat-headed figure in the center.
Barbarian always seemed a little strange, and Futaba attributed it to her foreign origin, but such symbolism, as well as the unintelligible mumbling that came from her side at night – something about Risha and her exceptional qualities – were warning signs that could no longer be dismissed as cultural differences. At the moment, this didn't cause any direct problems, other than anxiety – it was quite possible that the stress from endless studying had overlapped with the undesirable events that had been happening in recent weeks, but the trend clearly did not bode well, and the fact that a girl, raised in some strict religious rules, jumped into the arms of forbidden materials when left unsupervised – did not allow dismissing what was happening as unworthy of attention.
Probably, in the near future, she will have to somehow solve this issue, and for now, in addition to the usual sharpened object under her pillow, there is a separately equipped hidden place in the folds of the bed for a bat, and an additional invisible mount for a katana under the bed frame – so that, if necessary, she could quickly reach out, grab the weapon, and deliver a sweeping blow to the kneecaps with one movement.
Leaving the room and going down the stairs to the exit, Futaba grimaces at the overall situation.
"The current thing" of the last few weeks is on the lips of every other schoolchild, echoing from all the corridors – a heated discussion of theological views. It's as if you've lived your whole life in a vacuum, in a dilapidated village with savages, and haven't heard anything about these matters, but now you've been introduced to some fictional tabletop game. Some fools argue with each other about which god will defeat which – mine will defeat yours, no, mine will defeat yours; others, with burning eyes, discuss what superpowers they will gain if they swear allegiance to one or another fictional image; the third group is the worst – adjusting their horn-rimmed glasses, they analytically weigh the pros and cons of which god it is more advantageous to worship, completely disregarding the very concept of faith.
In other words, they are children, no matter how old or high-ranking they are, no matter how sophisticated monologues they deliver and try to pretend that they are making conscious decisions in this life.
Habitually lighting a cigarette at the exit and releasing the first puff of smoke, Futaba headed to work, concluding her reflections with the thought that if the gods-planners killed her brother for some great purpose, then it may have been done so that the vicissitudes of fate would lead her to the right time and place, where Karvia Imas would fall from her hand. Or maybe not just her.
Goddess of revenge, Futaba thought, would be a cool title when you're fifteen. If someone like Irka has found her place in the pantheon, then displacing her, or expanding it to eight – is a вполне real task.