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Well, my motivation to play is very simple.
When I was rereading the Mafia threads, which I've been doing quite often in the last three weeks, I noticed how terribly I behaved and how poorly I played.
I want to play properly, redeem myself, and stop involving so many emotions in the game.
Now I perfectly understand why no one particularly likes me. I want to apologize for my behavior because I find my own posts funny, very cringeworthy, and embarrassing.
Especially I feel embarrassed in front of the girls, because I was a complete jerk towards them.
I don't know if any of the former Mafia players are reading this thread, but I apologize.