Sacred Haven of Debauchery

I agree with Revan regarding the thoughts. Many people, including myself, have thought that maybe being a "vatnik" or something similar is better (oh, and I am a "vatnik" myself, haha), so it's normal, and you might be on the right path to realizing something bigger. I think that when a person starts to consider themselves a complete nobody, a failure, useless, worthless, and looks at themselves and evaluates themselves objectively, with a realistic perspective, then they have the opportunity to change for the better. It's like a step on the path to self-awareness, which you can then change and control.

Randomness in Mafia is truly awful; I realize that now.

But I won't forgive you for that.