It goes without saying that there is a difference in the status and property of an ordinary citizen and a party official. The latter remember former times with a sense of loss...
If the USSR and communism existed now, you would be a completely different person; it's unlikely you would even be allowed access to the internet, just like everyone else. The internet is information, and communists insist that life is best under them. Books, music, magazines, TV... You have already formed as a personality, and you simply cannot imagine how strikingly different you would be if they deprived you of all this.