You played your hand against Indra for blue better and faster because you didn't have a tournament situation "hanging" over you, unlike your opponent in Newbie. And somewhere you could afford to take a risk, roughly already knowing the "hand". So fun is fun, and tournament is tournament. Well, and nobody stopped you from writing Jebus Cross - there was a choice when Jebus Cross, Panic, and Mini-Nosta remained. Even some daddies call it Lakerus Cross-:)

And nobody stopped me from writing Jebus Cross... Well, and nobody stopped you from writing it either. Personally, I don't regret writing Jebus Cross. I lost due to my own fault: roads into walls need to be resurrected.
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A few years ago there was a tournament called doubles. The essence of the tournament was that participants of one team played one save for different colors.
Team A vs Team B
A1 vs B1
A2 vs B2
Many games ended with a score of 2:0, which indicated that the draw is not the main factor)
I would like to see that on Jebus Cross. I think most would be 1-1. Except for those cases where the difference in skill is simply enormous.