The meaning of life.

In my opinion, there is no need to search for anything; one simply needs to live, and life will lead to new horizons... if a break occurs, it means something was wrong... generally, life is the best teacher.
Suicide is an unsolvable conflict with life. There are different ways to kill oneself; a bullet in the head is too simple and clear (this has nothing to do with weakness), most take another path—they sear their own lives with a red-hot iron, while they may be wealthy, famous, outwardly cheerful and full of life... but this is also suicide, only slow. And it can all begin with very reasonable, somewhat romantic, yet real and consistent plans. Only life exists outside of plans, and until you know yourself, you will not understand what is truly better for you in life. Life teaches, and those who learn from it continue to live, while those who do not learn become suicides (whether fast or slow—it does not matter).