I'm afraid you won't understand my emotions, at least not right now.
Those who have played Heroes extensively, and to the point where they see it not just as a pleasant pastime but as a sport, where the result matters and depends on how well you play, can understand them. That's why various mirror match strategies are developed, and in tournaments, players like Stinger and Alex prefer to play 8mm6 instead of Chaos Magic.
I hope I've now explained the loss of motivation after playing a game of "Heads or Tails"?
By the way, I wasn't withdrawing from tournaments before either, and if I had known that such a decision might hinder someone in the points distribution, I wouldn't have done it.
Treating it as a sport is not only what you wrote; it also implies adherence to sporting principles. The principles of sports competitions can be found on Google.
Also, considering the sporting aspect and motivation, I want to say that one strengthens the other.
But since Heroes is not a sport, but only approximately comparable to some of them, it is also necessary to take into account the relationship, or rather, mutual respect, which comes to the fore more than in big sports, where money rules.
I hope everyone will understand everything without unnecessary words, and we will respect each other.