Poems...

My mind, a black spider, Crushed everything that was dear. Feelings have faded, and now All that remains is to endure the pain of loss. Only in my memory do I keep Those days when it was mine, Those days when I could love, Or maybe... maybe not! Forgive me for everything, forgive me. I destroyed everything so carelessly. Now the ruins of past years Give me a dim, pale light. I want to wish you Heavenly grace, To be loved, and to love in return. And maybe... maybe not! Be happy and joyful always, Even if not with me, but it doesn't matter. Give smiles like flowers, Of eternally living beauty. So that a series of troubles and misfortunes Never comes, And to survive all adversities, So maybe... maybe not... About what I couldn't write, I want to tell you when we meet. I want to give you flowers And carry you in my arms for life. But these are just dreams, And in them, only you and I. It's time to forget about them! Everything is possible. Maybe not... Forgive me for that sunset, It won't be among the losses. And forgive me for the dawn, We won't be able to experience them together. There will be no tears for happy days, Because they are only a dream for us. Trying to build without love Unfortunately, it doesn't work. Forgive me, I beg you, But I don't love, I don't love. Only coldness lives in my soul, And darkness of fog lies ahead. Outwardly, a "social beast" mask, But in my soul, only the pain of loss. I'm tired and want to rest, But I won't complain about fate. Forgive me for what didn't come true, For everything that had to be endured, For the tenderness of feelings that I didn't appreciate, For our little world that I destroyed. Believe me, it wasn't intentional, It's just that hope has died. The light at the end of the tunnel has gone out. But I won't give up, no! And no matter how many losses there are, There will be more rewards in life For everything that had to be endured, For what never came true