Dreams.

For the past month, I've noticed an interesting trend. I've been falling asleep in a strange way. Usually, sleep is oblivion; your thoughts start to drift away, and you lose yourself, forgetting everything. But with me, it's different. Yes, it starts the same way, but at one point, I get this feeling that I'm standing in front of an abyss, and I have a choice: jump and fall asleep, or step back and wake up. This abyss isn't visual, and it's not exactly the dream itself. I'm perfectly aware and think clearly, just like I do when I'm awake, and I can hear outside noises. So, if I jump, my heartbeat intensifies, and I experience a strong feeling of fear. If I don't make an effort, I'm thrown back and wake up. But if I brace myself and endure it, I somehow break through this barrier and immediately appear in the dream. And from that moment on, I don't remember anything.
It's strange.