All these messages about taking a step back, etc., are pure nonsense. Explain specifically what your goal is, what you have done yourself to develop the game. Because, at the moment, your position seems like a manifesto of extreme noobishness. A player who has not only never won against the top players but hasn't even competed with them, and probably hasn't even played with simply strong players. At the same time, there is a lack of constructive input in your position, which instead focuses on sometimes rather dubious Freudian humor.
Все в ней нулево и кукольно.