Sacred Haven of Debauchery

And you are wrong about only one thing, Vikh. In war, the bravest, noblest, and most honest people die. In war, the strongest, most resilient, and most responsible people break down psychologically. Those who return from it are cowards who hid in trenches, rear-echelon soldiers who sold weapons to the enemy, and people broken by the war who will never be normal again. The best people die in war.

And now, lying on my deathbed, I realized, perhaps for the first time, that if I could only have changed myself first, it would have served as an impetus and example for my family and would have influenced them.

You drew the wrong conclusions.