The meaning of life.

Oh, I agree... I'm not that old, but I'm very unhappy with my life... not just because of school... I used to have a lot of friends, real friends, but we've all been separated by distance...
I don't have any friends left who can support me in difficult times, but I do have one who torments me every single day... Ugh, the only thing I have left is the internet... and I don't know what to do... I'm falling into some kind of abyss, I want to get out and run away, but there's nowhere to run... Oh, and I don't even know if life has any meaning at all.

I understand... I had a similar feeling when our group of friends broke up... it's all very sad... I have one very good friend, with whom I've been through thick and thin, who moved to a neighboring district (a 20-minute walk away) and now it's like he's forgotten about his old friends, and about me... I don't know, but it just kills me - HOW CAN THAT BE! I tried to get him back into the group, but he says he has a new life now... and during our rare meetings, we mostly talk about nostalgia. And the people we used to hang out with and have fun with are mostly just playing computer games or just sitting around doing nothing...
What kind of life has it become? I miss the past... the bright past... the future doesn't seem so bright anymore, surprisingly, Mikhail Yurievich was right even today - "the future is either empty or dark"... I've also started to notice that the internet is consuming me.

But there's something else I want to tell you...
When I go to church and just light a candle, I immediately feel much better... But I rarely go to church, by chance, I don't go there myself... I don't know why...

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By the way, say hello to Lenka from Kash'a