Pursuit of the Sun 1.2

Having finished with the main tasks, Hargon finds a free place – whether it's the chambers allocated to him in the Stronghold or something similar – and begins to read the volume he bought the day before.

The Last Refuge
The book contains the wisdom of the best of those who have acknowledged the Void, regarding the nothingness of existence and the goodness of death.
"Of course, you cannot remember the moment of your birth, but others remember it. How did you come into the world? In blood and pain, covered in vile slime. What did this bring to your mother? Death and pain. What did it bring to your father? Worries and fear. What was your first sound? You cried, deprived of blissful non-existence, unwillingly thrown into a world of meaningless suffering. You will cry until your death, if your eyes are turned to the world, let the habit of enduring the meaninglessness of being, falsely called upbringing, make you cry silently now. And if you do not accept death even in life, you will suffer."
"But turn to what awaits you – and you will find Nothing, the only thing that is eternal and right. Remember your peaceful nights, when you were not tormented by dreams – were those moments more blissful? Death will be an eternal sleep for you, eternal happiness, for the only way to be happy is not to exist at all. Remember what was before your birth – did you experience suffering? Death will be a return home for you, you will not suffer."
"You will ask – so why not pierce your heart with a knife immediately and go into the arms of the Void? Of course, neither the fear of pain nor respect for duty should stop you, for neither exists in the Void. But remember – you do not exist either. All your actions are nothing, an error, an illusion, a random ripple, like a grain of sand falling into the sea. Imagine a grain of sand desperately struggling in something it doesn't even understand. Imagine another, but desperately striving to the bottom – aren't they both funny? Just as funny is a suicide, believing that his actions have meaning. You are meaningless, see it. Attempts to act will doom you to suffering, the world will fill you from within, drive you crazy, make you suffer. Inside you is the Void, it is also outside, it is in the past, present and future. And when you accept it, you will not suffer. You already belong to the last refuge, and let the great nothingness rock your insignificant body in the insignificant world – all is only the Void."
Hargon gains +1 to willpower.

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Yashur, I'll let you go after the tour. First, I can't handle two battles at once, and second, maybe one of the players will take on your quest.

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By the way, yes... Ottar takes the medicine.

– Since there is such an occasion... – Ottar said suddenly. – Why shouldn't I wash myself in the best place in the capital? Right here. What do you advise, master? I'm a complete novice in bathing matters.

Washing at the old man Augur's was questionable... And does he even wash himself? Probably, yes. He must respect himself. He's not some kind of outcast, or, may the Void forbid, a commoner.

-- This is a terrible mistake on your part. If you went to the bathhouse more often, you wouldn't be such a weakling. Go to the bathhouse master and have a beer afterwards. Ask for a birch broom. Getting a shave won't hurt you, but refrain from bloodletting.