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It was profound, and, unexpectedly for Lampra, quite sensible. Ushumgallu scratched the back of his head with an expression of obvious confusion. So, you live, you do something, you don't do something else, and then, bam – it turns out you should have done the exact opposite, and bad decisions lead to bad consequences, and those, in turn, lead to more bad decisions, and your whole life turns into a huge pile of manure, and right before the end, something hits you – maybe a warhammer, maybe an alien encounter – and your whole life falls apart into tiny pieces of crap. And you can't put anything back together.
How good it is that he is absolutely and firmly convinced of the correctness of his actions, and this will definitely not happen to him... His father never regretted anything in his life. Or, perhaps, resting in his estate, one of the wealthiest men in Barsin, did he sometimes feel how life was slipping through his fingers like sand, and his past exploits were just cobwebs on the walls of his chambers? Perhaps, while enjoying the executions performed by the best executioners during the day, at night he only thought that yet another fork in the road had been irrevocably passed, and neither the executed slaves nor the joy of the spectacle would return – you can execute ten thousand more, but it's not the same as the first hundred, and the time when execution was a celebration is long gone, and now it's just a routine? Perhaps, when he went to his last battle, he already knew that his strength was not enough, that a losing tactic had been chosen, that he should have acted differently from the very moment he ascended the throne of Barsin?... But if so, then he went to meet death, looking into the abyss – and without blinking. And what is regret for someone who meets death like that?
Ushumgallu returns to reality.
“That is very true, Master. I have not had the opportunity to experience the feeling of loss. Nor the feeling of such love. But I also have a Quest. And Genza has a Quest. I am sure that when I kill the Target, I will say that it was the right thing to do. When I do it, I will not want to go back, and on that day, today will be better than yesterday. We would like to learn more about Baldur. After all, it is... the story of those who did not miss opportunities, isn't it? If so, then this is an opportunity to understand how to move forward in time. We will move forward. And you will move forward. We will complete the Quests. We will find the Tome. And we will take revenge.”
He said the last word in such a way that his jaw clenched with rage. Ushumgallu tightly clenched his teeth and felt a piece chip off.
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😩 how slowly I type...
How good it is that he is absolutely and firmly convinced of the correctness of his actions, and this will definitely not happen to him... His father never regretted anything in his life. Or, perhaps, resting in his estate, one of the wealthiest men in Barsin, did he sometimes feel how life was slipping through his fingers like sand, and his past exploits were just cobwebs on the walls of his chambers? Perhaps, while enjoying the executions performed by the best executioners during the day, at night he only thought that yet another fork in the road had been irrevocably passed, and neither the executed slaves nor the joy of the spectacle would return – you can execute ten thousand more, but it's not the same as the first hundred, and the time when execution was a celebration is long gone, and now it's just a routine? Perhaps, when he went to his last battle, he already knew that his strength was not enough, that a losing tactic had been chosen, that he should have acted differently from the very moment he ascended the throne of Barsin?... But if so, then he went to meet death, looking into the abyss – and without blinking. And what is regret for someone who meets death like that?
Ushumgallu returns to reality.
“That is very true, Master. I have not had the opportunity to experience the feeling of loss. Nor the feeling of such love. But I also have a Quest. And Genza has a Quest. I am sure that when I kill the Target, I will say that it was the right thing to do. When I do it, I will not want to go back, and on that day, today will be better than yesterday. We would like to learn more about Baldur. After all, it is... the story of those who did not miss opportunities, isn't it? If so, then this is an opportunity to understand how to move forward in time. We will move forward. And you will move forward. We will complete the Quests. We will find the Tome. And we will take revenge.”
He said the last word in such a way that his jaw clenched with rage. Ushumgallu tightly clenched his teeth and felt a piece chip off.
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😩 how slowly I type...
E si sui vius, er mi grans benananza,
e si ieu muoir, er mi grans deliuriers
e si ieu muoir, er mi grans deliuriers