🍁Nine Ancient Obelisks

- Why... Heh. In short, it's because I've always felt like a flower in the ice. Why not like something worse? Well, even with my three dozen attractiveness points and one intelligence point, I think too highly of myself. - Kami falls silent and thinks about something, then continues. - I think it's all my father's fault. I know it sounds pathetic, but I don't have any other "objective" explanation, and I don't want to attribute everything to the fact that I'm a loser. In general, I think that fathers directly or indirectly guide us on a certain path - with their example, for instance, - he grimaces at the accidental tautology, - but what about mine? He thinks he's cool, but only in his own eyes; he hasn't achieved anything in life, but he considers everyone around him to be underdeveloped and lacking taste. He never said a single wise word to me in my life, only yelled and had tantrums for any and no reason, sometimes coming up with some idiotic forms of punishment. And how does he interact with other people? If someone is weaker and can't fight back, he yells at them, and sometimes even insults them. If someone is stronger or has influence, he shuts up and stays silent. Sometimes it seemed like he was some kind of insect in human skin, trying to act like a human but not being one. And at the same time, despite all the internal contempt, I always felt guilty; after all, he's still my father. Besides, sometimes it's scary to look in the mirror - what if I become like him, or what if I already am? Anyway, that's what I'm getting at. All of this confused me, and I never managed to figure out what I want from life and what I should strive for. Having fun with girls is enjoyable, and fighting helps me to distract myself, but there's nothing that guides me in life. That's why I'm here, hoping to find something. - He laughs weakly. - If I were a Calcarian cannibal, life would be easier for me. A full stomach - and that's all, no other worries.