I used to visit the Blizzard offices.
Upon seeing the image, Merel momentarily lost control, and then found himself holding a sword, with an empty space where the picture had been.
- I... I don't know, - the astrologer tried to look within himself, - I remember that I didn't like what I saw. It didn't evoke pleasant emotions, and there was nothing in it that would attract me, quite the opposite. A complete lack of aesthetics, pure ugliness.
An attractive woman of your race.
An attractive woman of a race significantly different from yours.
An attractive man of your race.
A repulsive woman of your race.
— From this, we can conclude that the key element of your current state is beauty, or rather, its absence.