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(part 2) The mind became a wound... If an apparatus were ever invented with which we could see what is happening inside every person, then probably everyone would immediately commit suicide. No one would allow anyone else to see what is happening inside them. Sooner or later, this will become possible. Right now, we can be grateful that there are no windows in our heads through which we could peer into each other's minds and see what is going on there. What people hide inside and what they say on the outside differ greatly. What you see on their faces on the outside is completely different from what is happening inside them. Perhaps on the outside they speak of love, but inside they are full of hatred. They might say to someone: "Good morning. I am glad to see you. I am happy to have met you this morning," — but inside they are saying: "Why is the first thing I have to look at this morning the face of this fool?" If there were windows to look inside people's heads, we would experience great difficulties; life would become truly complicated.
We could speak with someone in a friendly manner while thinking: "When will this person die?" On the surface is one thing, and inside is something else, and we do not dare to look inside, to glance within and see. What a person says in their sleep is more authentic than what they say when they are awake, because it comes more from within. The way you see yourself in your dreams is more real than the way you are in the marketplace and in the crowd.
The face in the crowd is made up and artificial; deep inside, you are a completely different person. You may manage to hide things by attaching some good thoughts to the outside, but inside a fire of thoughts burns. On the surface, you may seem absolutely calm and healthy, but inside everything is unhealthy and disrupted. On the surface, it may seem that you are smiling, but it is possible that this smile only covers an ocean of tears. In fact, it is quite likely that you have trained yourself in smiling precisely to hide the tears inside. Usually, people act exactly this way.
Someone once asked Nietzsche: "You are always laughing. You are so joyful. Do you really feel this way?" Nietzsche replied: "Since you asked, I will tell you the truth. I laugh so as not to cry. Before my weeping begins, I suppress it with laughter. I stop it inside myself. My laughter can convince others that I am happy. I am so sad that I feel relief only when I laugh. Sometimes I can comfort myself." No one saw Buddha laughing, no one saw Mahavira laughing, no one saw Christ laughing. There must be a reason. Perhaps they have no need to laugh because there are no tears inside, and nothing needs to be hidden. Perhaps no sadness remains inside to be hidden behind a smile. Everything that was disrupted inside has disappeared, so now there is no need to attach the flowers of laughter on the outside. He whose body smells bad needs to spray perfume on it. He whose body is ugly needs to make an effort to look beautiful.
He who is sad inside must learn to laugh, and he who is full of tears inside must constantly smile on the outside. He who is full of thorns inside must decorate himself with flowers on the outside. A person is absolutely not as they seem; they are the complete opposite. Inside them is one thing, and outside is something else. And it is well if others are deceived by what you have attached to the outside, but the problem is that you deceive yourself with it as well. If only others were deceived by appearances, everything would be fine — this is not very surprising, since people usually see only what is on the outside. But you yourself are deceived, as you think that you truly are the image that others see. You look at yourself through the eyes of others; you never see yourself directly as you are, authentic.
The image formed in the eyes of other people deceives you yourself, and you begin to fear looking inside. You want to see the image that people see in you, but not your reality. What do people say? You are very curious to know what is being said about you. Behind this curiosity lies only one thing: you think that you can know yourself through the image formed in the eyes of other people. This is truly amazing! Even to know yourself, you have to look into the eyes of another person. People fear that others will say something bad about them. They are happy when people say good things about them, because their knowledge of themselves depends on the opinion of others.
They do not possess direct knowledge of themselves; they have no direct experience of themselves. This experience can happen, but it does not happen because you try to run away from it. The first thing necessary when meeting the mind is not to worry about what others say or how you seem to others; instead, you must meet directly with what you are in essence. In solitude, you must fully open your mind and see what is there. This requires courage. It requires enormous courage — to decide to enter the hell hidden inside you. It requires great courage — to see yourself in your nakedness. Great courage is needed...
Osho
We could speak with someone in a friendly manner while thinking: "When will this person die?" On the surface is one thing, and inside is something else, and we do not dare to look inside, to glance within and see. What a person says in their sleep is more authentic than what they say when they are awake, because it comes more from within. The way you see yourself in your dreams is more real than the way you are in the marketplace and in the crowd.
The face in the crowd is made up and artificial; deep inside, you are a completely different person. You may manage to hide things by attaching some good thoughts to the outside, but inside a fire of thoughts burns. On the surface, you may seem absolutely calm and healthy, but inside everything is unhealthy and disrupted. On the surface, it may seem that you are smiling, but it is possible that this smile only covers an ocean of tears. In fact, it is quite likely that you have trained yourself in smiling precisely to hide the tears inside. Usually, people act exactly this way.
Someone once asked Nietzsche: "You are always laughing. You are so joyful. Do you really feel this way?" Nietzsche replied: "Since you asked, I will tell you the truth. I laugh so as not to cry. Before my weeping begins, I suppress it with laughter. I stop it inside myself. My laughter can convince others that I am happy. I am so sad that I feel relief only when I laugh. Sometimes I can comfort myself." No one saw Buddha laughing, no one saw Mahavira laughing, no one saw Christ laughing. There must be a reason. Perhaps they have no need to laugh because there are no tears inside, and nothing needs to be hidden. Perhaps no sadness remains inside to be hidden behind a smile. Everything that was disrupted inside has disappeared, so now there is no need to attach the flowers of laughter on the outside. He whose body smells bad needs to spray perfume on it. He whose body is ugly needs to make an effort to look beautiful.
He who is sad inside must learn to laugh, and he who is full of tears inside must constantly smile on the outside. He who is full of thorns inside must decorate himself with flowers on the outside. A person is absolutely not as they seem; they are the complete opposite. Inside them is one thing, and outside is something else. And it is well if others are deceived by what you have attached to the outside, but the problem is that you deceive yourself with it as well. If only others were deceived by appearances, everything would be fine — this is not very surprising, since people usually see only what is on the outside. But you yourself are deceived, as you think that you truly are the image that others see. You look at yourself through the eyes of others; you never see yourself directly as you are, authentic.
The image formed in the eyes of other people deceives you yourself, and you begin to fear looking inside. You want to see the image that people see in you, but not your reality. What do people say? You are very curious to know what is being said about you. Behind this curiosity lies only one thing: you think that you can know yourself through the image formed in the eyes of other people. This is truly amazing! Even to know yourself, you have to look into the eyes of another person. People fear that others will say something bad about them. They are happy when people say good things about them, because their knowledge of themselves depends on the opinion of others.
They do not possess direct knowledge of themselves; they have no direct experience of themselves. This experience can happen, but it does not happen because you try to run away from it. The first thing necessary when meeting the mind is not to worry about what others say or how you seem to others; instead, you must meet directly with what you are in essence. In solitude, you must fully open your mind and see what is there. This requires courage. It requires enormous courage — to decide to enter the hell hidden inside you. It requires great courage — to see yourself in your nakedness. Great courage is needed...
Osho