MyHappinessList

Only now am I beginning to realize how much better I have become since I moved. It’s interesting, my friend told me about this as early as a month and a half after the move, but I didn’t notice the difference myself. And now I see it. I’ve gained more mental resources and energy for various things; it’s become more joyful to come home to my Blonde, and I throw tantrums and get nervous much less often. I even visit HeroesWorld more frequently. Today, for instance, I tried painting with watercolors for the first time in 12-15 years. It turned out crappy, but I didn’t fall into hysterics calling myself a talentless hack, as I would have not so long ago—instead, I felt a bit sad and decided I’ll try drawing something else later. After such a long break, it’s good that I even remember which end of the brush to hold.
Of course, there’s still a lot of work ahead, but the first step has been taken, and my condition has significantly improved; it should get easier from here.

Oh, and also, the Fallout series. Especially Fallout 4, I’ve plunged headfirst into it now. It distracts me wonderfully, restores my will to live, and gives me a lot of inspiration and joy.