MyDepressionList

It also became easier for me when I cut myself (no, I wasn't trying to cut myself to the point of suicide). But doing that now, when someone is home 24/7, is impossible without the shouts of "WHY DO YOU NEED HYDROGEN PEROXIDE AND BLADES???!!", attempts to take everything away, and threats to call relatives who will hold me down until I calm down (if, of course, I were cutting myself to the point of suicide, I would easily avoid such obstacles). Even living with my family is suffocating me like hell, and I won't even talk about other basic things.

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You didn't even read the synopsis that I quoted. The author directly writes what you know, and what I knew from the very beginning of the conversation – that this cannot be cured with idle talk and autotraining, and many other things in the same vein. But you, ugh, are D'Artagnan, and all the others are disgusting "lifers," and only you know how to properly experience depression.

Ment, I'm already reading, everything is fine.