MyDepressionList

Re: MyDepressionList

At the grocery store, a girl, maybe 13-14 years old, with a sad face, was buying a magazine like "Cool" or "All Stars," as if it were the early 2000s. She put it in a shoulder bag covered with several pins. Maybe she's poor and doesn't have a smartphone or internet? Maybe she has a single parent, or alcoholic parents? Maybe she was buying it for a little sister who isn't allowed to have gadgets? Maybe she stole it and decided to buy a cheap magazine at the checkout? She wasn't beautiful or ugly – just a typical face of a Slavic girl from the CIS, a classmate from the early 2000s. She didn't say anything to the saleswoman, just looked down. The magazine was quite thin. Maybe she spent her small pocket money on it? Because of all this, I couldn't understand – maybe she was being bullied at school for being poor, modest, or for something else? Maybe the thin magazine about the lives of Kirkorov and Baskov, which she spent her meager pocket money on, was her escape? Or maybe not. Maybe she traveled here in a time machine from 2001? Or maybe she's actually doing great, and I just imagined it all.

Nevertheless, it was one of the most depressing real-life sights I've seen recently. The fact that I couldn't tell from her appearance whether she was living a good life or a bad one, but I felt the uncomfortable atmosphere of the early 2000s, at least suggests that the atmosphere was unhealthy. The fact that I wanted to feel sorry for her, despite all the cynicism of those years, although it's not at all certain that it would have been meaningful, and it might even be a form of offense if she's actually doing great and it's just her style, so I couldn't allow myself to do it, only shows that I never want to see anything like that again.