Sacred Haven of Debauchery

I guess I'm not understanding something about life. Someone really trolled me at some point. I just can't remember who, when, or how. I feel like I've remembered everything, I've gone over everything, but something is still bothering me. And I've mentally apologized to everyone, but something still feels off, like some part of my brain is stuck. I don't even know what to do about it. Everything seems fine, everything is great, everything is going according to plan, but still, by the end of the day, I'm hunched over, with red eyes, feeling exhausted, and I have this subconscious urge to smoke.