I don't want an easy victory; I just think that everything is wrong, and if it were a different organization, one that actually played with beginners, for example, this would never have happened. If necessary, I will play; it's a shame that it's difficult to find understanding, either everyone is too lazy to express their opinion, or they don't care, or they can't show anything in the game, and they don't care who they play with or who they lose to.
I understand you like no one else. When I was doing karate, I was always pitted against people who were taller and heavier than me. I complained too.
Later, I realized that you need to have a fighting spirit, and it doesn't matter who the opponent is. The main thing is to strive for something, and sometimes that is more important than many victories. (c) dozzerka