Sacred Haven of Debauchery

In a fit of destructive rage, I tore up over 35 of my books. It was so upsetting that I cried. Lately, I've been crying a lot. I think I'm starting to lose control. By the way, considering that they're not cheap, and some are relatively rare, I destroyed $250-300 worth of books. If I had a stove or fireplace, I would have burned the torn pieces. In short, I had another episode.