I finished reading it. Besides the intrigue and other elements during the story itself, I was emotionally devastated by the end.
Undoubtedly, the ability to experience these emotions is one of the few reasons why I still walk this earth.
Added 5 minutes later
But the most difficult thing, of course, is returning to the disgusting reality.
That is, the body forced me to return to this very disgusting reality, and I will have to deal with it in order to allow myself to return to where my soul feels good.
p.s. btw, I was browsing my old thread – it was funny to read my old posts; it's just amazing how a person's worldview can change depending on the conditions they are in. Apparently, the lack of comfort and free time clouds my mind.