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Revan, to be honest, forget about these dreams of yours and appreciate what you have. Start small, and things will work out. I, for example, really want to live in Australia, but I don't put kangaroo banners in my signature and I don't write everywhere about how bad things are here and how much I want to go to the Great Barrier Reef.
I just know for sure that, even though my health isn't great, I'll still live to be 50-60 years old. And even if I can only move there when I'm 45 or so, I'll still be happy, and it will be worth it.
You can spend your youth on challenges and overcoming obstacles. That's what it's for.