It's perfectly normal when it comes to this aspect of life, even if you're a rational person who likes to think things through, make plans, and so on.
Sometimes, it's precisely this irrational wildness that helps to get things in order in life, because everything in life happens in its own time.
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Revan, have you tried thinking outside the box? Besides Japanese, Korean, and Chinese women, there are also Buryat, Nanai, Ulchi, and others in the world. What's wrong with them?

