Route

I should probably write something too.
I won't write a long post, I don't have time. Maybe later.
But I can't resist compiling the responses (and adding my own, of course).

Self-esteem
I've always considered myself objective in this regard.

list of what's missing, skipped

Total: a used-up, mediocre person who likes to think.

Bro, you are the best thing on the forum, and I really mean it. Without you, I wouldn't come back, at most, I would just keep in touch with individual people through Skype. I think I'm not the only one who feels this way; I think you are the cement that holds the bricks, that is, us, together.

Ironically, it was on the forum that you encountered a situation of success. You have creative contests, interesting stories, exciting Mafia and RPG games (it's a pity that I don't participate in them, but I still remember some of them). By the way, this confirms that you are capable of a lot in real life too, only no one is there to provide the support that you can get on the forum.

You have at least one obvious talent. Your entertainment for forum members is really the best. Not just Mafia and RPGs. Events with pictures, "hurma" too...
Actually, I see a second one - a sense of beauty. Maybe you really could become a designer of women's clothing. Or something like that.

In general, you have something to offer the world (and it's something unique, and that's always valuable). All that's left is to figure out how. And possibly (definitely), to improve some skills for this.
Unfortunately, I'm far from the entertainment industry, so I don't know how it's done either. But I'm always happy to share my "brilliant ideas."

In addition to my terrible organizational skills (I have never been able to manage my time properly and still can't),

I myself can't stand time management and consider myself quite disorganized, but unfortunately, I really need to do something about this. It's as important as good English. In general, my opinion: English and time management are the top priorities to improve.

I'll also say something about freelancing. Despite all its advantages, its disadvantage is the instability of income (either there are no clients, or there is a scam with payment). So, before embarking on this path (if you ever do), it's better to have some financial "cushion" in case of hard times and always keep some kind of option with a "routine job in the office with a stable, small income" in mind. In general, have escape routes.