Route

The Future
On the one hand, it's good when you've already hit rock bottom – you can't sink any further. But on the other hand, the deeper you go, the harder it becomes to surface. Without beacons, I don't see where to swim.

Actually, the bottom is unattainable...

Oh, come on, I'm happy with parodies.

I've changed my mind. It's somehow sad and depressing. I was sad and depressed before, but now even more so. And what can I say to you... I'll repeat what Sesame wrote above:

No one can guarantee success, but the chances will still be slightly higher than if you do nothing.

Don't stop trying to surface.

And here's a funny paradox: to make progress in this direction, I need money, and I don't have any.

Forget about the background and all the "no money" stuff. If you have enough to feed yourself, you can scrape together enough to feed your partner. Just start taking steps in this direction if you're really feeling it. Yes, it sounds like some cheesy self-help advice. I don't like that kind of crap myself. And you might not agree with me, but there are simply no other options. It's not even about the money. I think that if you had money, you would still feel like Arandor and do nothing. You would come up with something else. You have money/a job. Oh yeah, there are health problems. Health has improved/become tolerable. Oh yeah, there's no apartment. You have an apartment. Oh yeah, there's no car. You have a car. Oh yeah, I'm not in the mood today, maybe tomorrow. Oh, but tomorrow I'll be 60.

Revan reminded me of Zuko from "Avatar" with this post.

Hmm, he's reminded me of Zuko from "Avatar" for a long time.