Route

Never mind, I just don't see any ways to achieve the third route, and even if I take the first one, it will be very short-lived until the last point in the scheme. Everything is frustrating in the second one, and there are no prospects for anything. There's no motivation. If I knew that I would work in captivity for a certain number of years and then get a profit, then yes, I could muster the will. But living paycheck to paycheck, working a five-day week for a million hours, including the commute, is too much for my delicate and very sensitive soul.