Posts from MyDepressionList

over the past couple of weeks:
- tried watching random TV series - dropped them all after 1-4 episodes;
- tried reading some books - only short stories of a few pages are enjoyable; dropped anything more substantial;
- walked across a pedestrian bridge over the trees (like a "walk in the sky") - didn't understand where the adrenaline was supposed to be (although I cheated - I didn't look down, maybe that was a mistake);
- today I went to the pool, saw how many people were there, and went home (a year ago, that wouldn't have stopped me)

boredom, death, decay, I don't want to do anything, I don't even want to hang myself.

You had to look up at the sky. You can also do that on a swing or on an escalator in the subway.

Sesam got sick with COVID.
And I'm looking forward to nerfs in Sylvan (please, make the forest playable) and a trip to Porebrik-city, but the Damocles sword of [DATA REDACTED] work and five pages left to finish the fourth chapter hangs over me.

boredom, death, decay, nothing feels appealing, not even wanting to hang myself

Very relatable. For me, it usually passes if I force myself to train hard or drink a lot, but sometimes even after some big, joyful event, like a tournament or a particularly wild party, the apathy returns the next day.

Over time, alcohol will only intensify this state, rather than suppress it.

That’s why anime is better than alcohol.

Every man has his own tastes.

You can also combine them...

Anime to drink vodka to, NAKATNM. This is what I call a real Russian vibe.

I still prefer the old-fashioned way – watching 3D animated series. It's great for inspiration, and my English is good enough now that I don't need to watch with subtitles. When I used to watch Sailor Moon, I had to constantly pause and read the subtitles.

This is what it means to live without love...

In general, it's good to have some "activities" that don't require deep involvement and a lot of energy. Just for such cases.
And you can also just dream...

generally, it's good to have some "activities" that don't require deep immersion and a lot of energy. Just for such cases.

On the contrary, you need activities that take up all your time and energy so that you don't get distracted by all sorts of nonsense like depression and apathy.

and you can also just dream...

Well, that's just a path to nowhere; in the end, you'll just lock yourself away in your dreams.

I don't know. I, on the contrary, find solace in dreams. When I feel really awful, I project all that negativity onto imaginary characters, play out some kind of story with them, and it helps me calm down to a manageable state.

You need to dream of good things for yourself...
and it would also be nice if there was something that lifts your spirits almost always and isn't alcohol or other substances.

For example.